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Forward Not Backward

Yesterday was an amazing day, but I almost let it be taken away from me more times than I can count. My parents, especially my dad, have been........ Well, my dad has just been making me want to walk out of the ho…
This Is Even Harder Than I Thought It Would Be

As far as setting food goals....... Oh my gosh. I. F.A.I.L. I seriously just stood in my kitchen for a half hour or longer. Yesterday, well, I did the complete opposite that I was supposed to. I didn't eat at all. I…
I Am Kind Of Blank......

But....at this very second I am having a moment of slight sanity. And for the first time in almost a year, I know God hasn't left me. I thought He did. He hasn't. I don't completely understand everything, or why so m…
Time Is Passing At A Really Weird Rate.....

I slept for around three or four hours last night. I woke up out of a dead sleep and felt strongly that I shouldn't go back to sleep. Like the title of this post says, time is passing at a really weird rate. I'm not s…
My Mind Is Slightly Lost And Confused

There are so many things going on in my mind right now. Too much. It's been a REALLY long day. First of all, I have something slightly stressing me out. My older sister's boyfriend left her and my nephew for lik…
Rough Night....

*sigh*It's still so early.I'm tired, but not tired enough to actually sleep.The night hasn't been great so far.That's not a good thing since, as I mentioned, it's still so early.I have another Mercy check in tomorrow.It'…
Please.Just.Shut.Up.You.Don't.Know.What.You're.Talking.About.

I am very upset at the moment (big understatement). I was in an ok mood up until I read something. I don't remember the exact context. In all reality, I am so out of it in general at the moment that I was having …
More Memories...

I've been remembering even more random things lately. Some of it is soooo completely random that I don't understand why I'm even remembering them, but others are really helping me understand some things. There was…
I Don't Want To Sleep?

I just realized I haven't posted in a few days or so. I mentioned in the last one that I had a horrible time sleeping that morning due to crazy panic attacks in and out of my dreams. That has continued for the las…
h.e.l.p.

Today has been way too long. I didn't sleep last night. I'm so tired. I fell asleep at around 10:30am-ish and have been waking up every 10-15 minutes. Not just waking up normally. I keep waking up with my heart raci…